The sunshine lets a spillage of secrets
Fool me into thinking that this is
yet another beginning of my life. The Sixth.
Having loved one too many
You still stun me stiff
like a million Medusas.
I am both paralysed by love and its negation
You’ve got me, again, like a pest
Dancing in the very fumes
sent to kill it
Always mid-movement, limbs
bent all the wrong ways,
reeling my words back again
To mix them like paint on my palate
What tones could I
Possibly contrive to cover everything
ugly and grim about myself?
Sinking my loved ones in shipwrecks,
A gut that has never known nourishment,
To make you want to frame me up
And kiss my rough edges and paste me on the
roof of your bunk bed? I continue
Mixing the acrylics as I wonder
Another Orphean temptation
of departure splinters my will,
and a ghastly silence trickles down
the walls of the room we used to inhabit.
Sabotage is a tradition.
Dying, am I, just dying
To erase this fiction一friction一
Of so many untold secrets
I dread no one will want to keep for me.
Unless you, you
You could cope一nope?